after 2 weeks... i cried again. (silent)
tell me... how long does it actually take to mend your broken heart? to heal? how long? i dont know how.. or why... probably because of the book. or the songs. or the thought that there are so many photos of him still residing in the harddrive that i cant bare to look at.. or to delete.
i wanted to potray the strong eija who doesnt really care about any of these.. but i failed. miserably. ataupn sbb i strict sgt ngan diri sendiri. at this second.. i want to cry and cry and cry... air mata ni mcm tak nk berhenti pulak. seriously i dont want to think about it.. but sometimes it just happens. its hard.
dem it! tmrw is monday!
a friend told me that there are 3 types of people - all i can remember one of it is a person who makes it happen. in my case.. im trying very hard here to be happy - and berusaha supaya bende jadi seperti yg diidamkan. i wish i can reformat everything and begin again... tp kadang2 ada saki baki tuu mengusik jiwa dan jiwa jadi kacau. bodoh!
if he ever find his way to this blog - i wish him hell.. well. im so better off without him. heck!!!!!good sense of humor. knows what he wants in life - ambitious that is. share his feeling. and seriously kene pandai pujuk.
i'll be 25 in 21 days... tho my mind still thinks im 17... i should kuarkan all my wishlists and start doing it!
to all 25 out there- lets live life to the fullest!!! cheers.
p/s: tibe2 jd semangat pulak. duhhh~~~
*updated
sy patut bersyukur dgn rakan2 yg Allah SWT kurniakan pada sy. yg willingly to help me anytime. yg willingly to share their love life after i text them "your love story can cheer me up. please". who dedicate their blog entry to me. thank you. who always text me back whenever i texted them im in a mess. thank you. thank YOU.
